It’s So Hot But I Ran Anyway
Running Journal: Monday, Aug 8th
Training for: Marine Corps Marathon 2022
It was wretchedly hot this morning. The kind of heat where everything bothers you, and it makes you frustrated. My singlet was completely stuck to my body. I could barely see with all the sweat dripping into my eyes. I mean, I was literally gagging from the humidity and yelling F-bombs the entire time. Lady Gaga gave me enough strength to make it through.
But listen, after a hectic weekend, and a previously anxious week, hitting my 4 mile easy run route this morning was a great refresher for my body and brain. I had so much anxiety stored up that it was crushing my spirits and turning me from bitch-on-a-broomstick, to complete-and-utter-c-word.
Today, I tried to sort out a lot of my anxieties swirling around in my head. I also tried to pin-point what it was about those anxieties that threw me off my game a little bit this week/weekend… I had a lot on my mind thinking about some new and exciting job perspectives… my part-time job on the weekends executed a yearly event… my boyfriend has been gone and I’m alone with our dog…
Normally, I can handle myself pretty well and I don’t let too many things get to me. I’m a cherry, exuberant, and flamboyant character. I don’t know that I came to any conclusion, per say, about why I succumbed to the stress of the last 7 days. I think I lost track of some of my normal positives: my morning routine, a normal running schedule (thwarted by this heatwave!), and lack of companionship. So, that being said… where do I go from here and how do I learn?
Reminding myself (and listening to my boyfriend) that there are great things around me and although the going is tough, there’s no sense in letting the small things get to me. Sometimes I often predict what I think might occur, or how a day might be, and that is so detrimental, LOL. Honestly the only thing that I lost over the last few days from my normal routine, was discomfort and moodiness!
The freedom of running today reminded me that starting my day with a sweat, a mental and physical challenge, and in a consistent ritual is the best way for me to stay truly grounded and level headed.